I began telling you how God was "coaxing" me OUT of the dating world by surrounding me with "emotionally unavailable" people.
He needed to get me to STEP ONE: HUMBLE YOURSELF!
I am a little bit hard-headed or I would have KNOWN to NOT DATE AFTER my divorce anyway! MANY people had told me to wait and give myself TIME to heal, BUT I felt that I was the EXCEPTION... I was ALREADY HEALED!!! I was away from an unhappy marriage and I was READY to find LOVE..... Uuuuggggggg- was I WRONG!!!!! I NEEDED SERIOUS HELP and God KNEW IT!!!!
We have all heard that God CAN USE ALL things for HIS GOOD and THAT is EXACTLY what HE DID!!!! God used these "emotionally unavailable" dates to ACTUALLY help me!
This is how He did it... the Lord GUIDED our conversations! It is a fact that wounded people usually talk QUITE A BIT about their feelings, and they tend to BLAME other's for their sadness. My "scarred" dates did this on a REGULAR basis. As you can imagine, these dinner conversations ended up to be the opposite of LIGHT HEARTED and FUN, BUT they LED me closer to MY RESTORATION- which was God's ULTIMATE GOAL!!!!
By listening to these wounded souls I realized that I, "Leslie the healed", just may be a little "wounded" myself ..... AND that I needed to OWN up to MY FAULTS!!!
Afterall, I WAS at LEAST HALF of the reason that my last marriage was so bad in the FIRST PLACE!
These individuals and our conversations led me to LOOK at myself in a DEEPER way and realize that I NEEDED GOD MORE THAN EVER!!!
I began paying attention to some of the sermons and books that my "dates" were mentioning. I decided to check them out.
I became borderline OBSESSED with learning and growing!!!! I read and listened to EVERY Christian author and pastor that dealt with love and relationships. I had FAILED at my previous relationship, AND I DID NOT WANT TO EVER FAIL AGAIN!!!!
One of the first sermons I listened to came from the series , "Love, Sex, and Dating" by Andy Stanley at North Point Church. It WAS AMAZING!!!! It REALLY HIT HOME WITH ME!!! iI realized that I NEEDED to BECOME the PERSON that I WAS LOOKING FOR!!!! Doing this was going to take TIME, EFFORT, and PRAYER.
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At this same time I also began purchasing CHRISTIAN relationship books.....
Some really powerful books that I read were, Love and Respect by Dr. Emerson Eggerichs and Wild at Heart by John Eldredge
There are MANY other INCREDIBLE books out there by Christian authors, I suggest you read the ones that SPEAK to you!!! :)
These books led me FURTHER down God's path..... My next post will be about how GOD SURROUNDED me with Christian friends- which I DESPERATELY NEEDED....
I hope you are noticing the different "STEPS" in my RESTORATION PROCESS.....
I am intentionally posting details about EACH one ..... in the hopes that YOU
WILL SEE and find COMFORT IN God's ULTIMATE LOVE FOR EACH ONE OF US!!!
More coming soon...... :)